ANGER .

Anger and hate are strange emotions.
Sometimes they arise because of valid reasons,
sometimes feel anger and hatered for no reason at all
You dont know who or what you are angry at or why ?
It is some what like irrational fear ,you know you are afraid
but can't quiet tell why or what you are afraid of.

When anger consumes you,
It controls all you thoughts and all your actions
You are angry at everyone and everything
Life turns into hell
YOu fail see anything good around you
you even fail to enjoy the thing you really like,thing for which you live
You fell so alone,in this over crowded world

You remember the good old day when everything was good
and think that those days will never return again
You think that something inside you has changed to turn you into this person
YOu think that you will never be the same again
and that you are destined for this life of anger and hate

then suddenly a few peaceful moments erases all the anger and hate
Just when you see no hope,something changes everything
You recover and you fell better than before,
You become capable of forgiving anyone even your greatest of foe's

You dont know what had happened or why it happened
You dont care for any reaon or rationality
You are just happy life is good again ....

The Lost Soul's

Every individual defines their reason's for existence.
And These very reasons define the individual.
They shape an ordinary individual to an extraordinaire being.
I am proud to have known such people.People with great minds and skills.
People who justified their reason to exist.People who defined themselves.
People who held on to their dreams and ideas no matter what the circumstances.
They tried to pursue their dreams even if they knew they would fail.

But that seems so long ago.
People change too much too quickly. I haven't quiet realized what might trigger such a change
It is as if they have completely forgotten who they were. Sure on the outside they are the same.
But i fell something is so very wrong.
They have somehow managed to forget their dreams.
These very dreams which was a driving force in their life.
Soul reason that justified their existence.
They instead choose to strive for trivial things like money,respect in society etc.

All these people suddenly have started caring about their status in society,their bank balance.The have began to judge every aspect of life by money.Happiness,success,pride,honour everything is suddenly weighed against money one possesses or one will posses in their future.The have stopped talking about their dreams and ambitions any more.all they speak about is about ways to earn more and become a success in eyes of the society.Gone are the days when they dreamed
They have finally succumbed to the machine.
A mechanical state of existence.

They are however in a state of denial about it.
Unaware or maybe unwilling to accept the truth.
The truth that they let go of everything they held dear in their life.
They constantly try to justify their actions as if someone is
judging and scrutinizing their every move.
Maybe it a justification they are trying to give to their conscience.
A justifications for The fact that they have traded heaven for hell
They have traded the hopeless romantic they were for a mechanical human drone.

They have traded a quiet and peaceful life for meaningless so called bigger dreams.

The worst thing one can possibly do is sell themselves,sell their beliefs and ideals.They have ended up selling their souls and Still find a way to justify their actions.

A person's committing such a actions may seek a road to redemption's if he was unaware of the actions he had commited.If he was an ignorant brute.

But a person intelligent enough to understand which is the right path,and still chooses the wrong and easier road cannot be redeemed.A person justifying his actions but stating that his actions are limited within the ethical boundaries he has drawn for himself.

i never thought i would really encounter such souls in my life.Because i thought one can not lay such punishment on one self

Willful ignorance is a act of crime against one self.And at the end of this road there can be no redemption only regret.

This was the very difference that separated Howard Roark and Gail Wanyand. Of late all i see around me are people who had the potential and the will to go the Howard roark's way take the path of Gail Wanyand.