What does the future hold for me … for all of us.I feel scared whenever i think about this ….
how will i die,how will people i care about die.How will this impact me.Do i have the courage to see them die.
will i have the courage to do what is necessary at the end.How will this affect me.How will i survive without them.
Let’s face it i am a total misfit with no skill to survive.I have absolutely no skills to make real world decision.
or will i perish before them.Will they remember me.Will i get a great farewell.How will my last day be …..
Seeing my friends getting married,engaged,in relationship,starting a job,buying a house.i wonder will i ever get these things
then again i can only hear the world laughing at my friends and “Welcoming then to the machine”
I think about how we were important big fishes in a small pond.And how we entered a environment where we had to start
from the bottom….Will i ever become a big fish again ….
Being a giant in a small world ….or being a dwarf in a large universe …… and of failing ….
Then again i have realised that there will always be a bigger pond,bigger universe …..
Then atlast i think about john galt ……. have a good laugh,tell my
self to screw the world ,my fickle mind ,irrelevant past , insignificant
future and get on with the job …….
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Parliment is supreme
Politicians always say that parliament is supreme.It is place where
the fate of the country should be decided.The justification for this is
that the members of parliament are elected by the people,hence whatever
they say in the parliament is the voice of the people.No argument could
be more flawed in the current scenario.How accessible are the Members of
parliament,how can we approach them to give suggestion,what
qualification do they hold to decide and vote on all the matters,who are
the council of advisers of MP's,what are the qualification of MP's,Is
there a system where members of constituency can voice their opinion on a
particular legislation that is passed,how can MP's be made accountable
if the go against the people of constituency . And on top of all their
flaws,they make a mockery of parliament by reducing all debates to
achieve political gains so that they remain in power rather than doing
good for the country.
All laws made in the parliament will be best law,no one else in the world can come up with better system.This is also wrong.The quality of debates are so poor that you would think that do they have any rationale at all.They hold the constitution is supreme,it is the world of god and no improvements can be made in the constitution.The reject any new ideas based on the constitution,they reject any new ideas citing stability,they reject new ideas unless they are to profit from it.It is not a case that MP are not be trusted.But the are so closed and not transparent that they make it impossible to trust their judgement.
Contitution as envisioned at the time of formation of country is supreme,.But it is also outdated.It was based on the view that will of the house will be the will of the majority.It was based on the premise most of people will be rational,hence the people they elect will the rational.And the decision they take in parliament will be rational.It always took into consideration that majority will be right and consist of rational minded people.But this premise is false.The rationale they present in the parliment is illogical and deceiving .The motives for their judgement are questionable.This leads us to conclusion that their decisions are biased.But the hope was that such people would be in the minority and majority will offset and correct such views.However in the current system.The majority is irrational and rational people are in minority.Theirs voice and decision hence have become irrelevant .This basic flaw which was not envisioned by the creators of constitution .This flaw must be rectified for parliamentary democracy to function efficiently again.
MP are not accountable for the stand they take in parliament.They donot need to provide any justification.We do not know on what basis they have made their decision.Have they taken into account the members of the constituency.How do the communication with the people who elected them.Do they have any mechanism so that people can approach them with view's.how does the voice of the people echo in parliament.how to the people address their griveance and concern to the MP's .These systems are not in place.So how can the MP's be justified in saying that they are the voice of the people just by the virtue that they have won a election that takes place once in 5 years.There must be a mechanism to challenge the MP's and challenge the parliament so that they work efficiently.They must mandatory work for prescribed number of hours,they must be penalized for disrupting and creating chaos in parliament.Their statements in the parliament must be held accountable and scrutinized.How come MP's can criticize the constitution in the parliament but when a common citizen does so he is a traitor.
Parliamentary democracy has turned into a monarchy.Most people in the parliament have remained in power irrespective of their performance,work they have done.This indicates a inherent flaw in the system.In a country of a billion people are there only a few 100 people whose are eligible to lead and decide the fate of the nation.New people must emerge and given a change.Successive terms as MP's must be discontinued.Otherwise the circle of power will never end.Once people who hold power will always remain in power.
MP's say that they are under constanty scrutiny and are unfairrly blamed.They have taken the responsibility of running the country.They have to bear the scrutiny and blame for failures collectively.In our system it not that only government takes the decision,it is the parliment.Hence entire parliament and distorted view of constitution is accountable for the state of apathy in the country.
If some people raise their voice against this,they are called as self righteous people.If some people present new and improved ideas to parliament,they are discarded due to massive egos of the MP's.The debates in the parliament are mind numbing and disturbing.The result and conclusion of the debates are scary.Why should we trust such a parliament,why should we hold it supreme .......
All laws made in the parliament will be best law,no one else in the world can come up with better system.This is also wrong.The quality of debates are so poor that you would think that do they have any rationale at all.They hold the constitution is supreme,it is the world of god and no improvements can be made in the constitution.The reject any new ideas based on the constitution,they reject any new ideas citing stability,they reject new ideas unless they are to profit from it.It is not a case that MP are not be trusted.But the are so closed and not transparent that they make it impossible to trust their judgement.
Contitution as envisioned at the time of formation of country is supreme,.But it is also outdated.It was based on the view that will of the house will be the will of the majority.It was based on the premise most of people will be rational,hence the people they elect will the rational.And the decision they take in parliament will be rational.It always took into consideration that majority will be right and consist of rational minded people.But this premise is false.The rationale they present in the parliment is illogical and deceiving .The motives for their judgement are questionable.This leads us to conclusion that their decisions are biased.But the hope was that such people would be in the minority and majority will offset and correct such views.However in the current system.The majority is irrational and rational people are in minority.Theirs voice and decision hence have become irrelevant .This basic flaw which was not envisioned by the creators of constitution .This flaw must be rectified for parliamentary democracy to function efficiently again.
MP are not accountable for the stand they take in parliament.They donot need to provide any justification.We do not know on what basis they have made their decision.Have they taken into account the members of the constituency.How do the communication with the people who elected them.Do they have any mechanism so that people can approach them with view's.how does the voice of the people echo in parliament.how to the people address their griveance and concern to the MP's .These systems are not in place.So how can the MP's be justified in saying that they are the voice of the people just by the virtue that they have won a election that takes place once in 5 years.There must be a mechanism to challenge the MP's and challenge the parliament so that they work efficiently.They must mandatory work for prescribed number of hours,they must be penalized for disrupting and creating chaos in parliament.Their statements in the parliament must be held accountable and scrutinized.How come MP's can criticize the constitution in the parliament but when a common citizen does so he is a traitor.
Parliamentary democracy has turned into a monarchy.Most people in the parliament have remained in power irrespective of their performance,work they have done.This indicates a inherent flaw in the system.In a country of a billion people are there only a few 100 people whose are eligible to lead and decide the fate of the nation.New people must emerge and given a change.Successive terms as MP's must be discontinued.Otherwise the circle of power will never end.Once people who hold power will always remain in power.
MP's say that they are under constanty scrutiny and are unfairrly blamed.They have taken the responsibility of running the country.They have to bear the scrutiny and blame for failures collectively.In our system it not that only government takes the decision,it is the parliment.Hence entire parliament and distorted view of constitution is accountable for the state of apathy in the country.
If some people raise their voice against this,they are called as self righteous people.If some people present new and improved ideas to parliament,they are discarded due to massive egos of the MP's.The debates in the parliament are mind numbing and disturbing.The result and conclusion of the debates are scary.Why should we trust such a parliament,why should we hold it supreme .......
Chaos
I have never known how to react when suddenly something totally unexpected,something impossible happens.
It may so happen that out impossible dreams came true or our worst nightmare .
This is a rare occasion in my life where in one of my dream may have come true.I still do not believe that all this is happening.
My first reaction was I entered into a mode of denial,i refused to believe that this is really happening,that this was all a dream and i would wake up any moment now.
After few day have passed and i did not find myself waking up,i began evaluating the reason for my success.
One of the reason for my disbelief was that i did not think i was deserving enough to succeed.i had done very poorly at the test and it was a impossible chance at success.
I am unable to comprehend why i succeeded,why i was chosen based on what criteria.
I was some chaotic order of universe combined with my inherently paranoid nature that lead to a series of events that lead me to succeed.
I could have failed,i could have succeeded ,absolutely anything was possible on the day of my test.
"When i completed the first round and was waiting for the result for hours,where the began announcing the result i entered the hall the exact moment they were announcing my name,extremely weird coincidence.i still cannot believe that happened,
i check the result several time to check that it was indeed my name that was called
not entirely sure what lay ahead,i was called for the next round,i finished the round and when i was about to leave ,due to my inherently paranoid nature i check the result again and again found that i had one more test.
and it was because of this test that i was most likely selected.If i had not been such a paranoid person i would have left without checking the result again and most likely have failed.
the test also was not particularly good for me,and since there was nothing to loss i provided a display of some of my ego,i would like to thing that also had some part in my selection."
all the event determine heavily by chaotic order of universe made me come to the conclusion that one does not control ones destiny .since chaos can make or break you at any time
what one can control is be one true self under all circumstance
One can be our true paranoid weird self that and do thing that make one happy,do thing that one want's to do without regard for past of future.Since past has already occurred and there is never a point living in the past and due to inherently chaotic order of universe one can never control the future.
For if ever there was a right way i truly believe that this is it.accept the chaos and randomness of the universe and do the the best thing the only thing I can do and will do is to be me ,weird paranoid me........
It may so happen that out impossible dreams came true or our worst nightmare .
This is a rare occasion in my life where in one of my dream may have come true.I still do not believe that all this is happening.
My first reaction was I entered into a mode of denial,i refused to believe that this is really happening,that this was all a dream and i would wake up any moment now.
After few day have passed and i did not find myself waking up,i began evaluating the reason for my success.
One of the reason for my disbelief was that i did not think i was deserving enough to succeed.i had done very poorly at the test and it was a impossible chance at success.
I am unable to comprehend why i succeeded,why i was chosen based on what criteria.
I was some chaotic order of universe combined with my inherently paranoid nature that lead to a series of events that lead me to succeed.
I could have failed,i could have succeeded ,absolutely anything was possible on the day of my test.
"When i completed the first round and was waiting for the result for hours,where the began announcing the result i entered the hall the exact moment they were announcing my name,extremely weird coincidence.i still cannot believe that happened,
i check the result several time to check that it was indeed my name that was called
not entirely sure what lay ahead,i was called for the next round,i finished the round and when i was about to leave ,due to my inherently paranoid nature i check the result again and again found that i had one more test.
and it was because of this test that i was most likely selected.If i had not been such a paranoid person i would have left without checking the result again and most likely have failed.
the test also was not particularly good for me,and since there was nothing to loss i provided a display of some of my ego,i would like to thing that also had some part in my selection."
all the event determine heavily by chaotic order of universe made me come to the conclusion that one does not control ones destiny .since chaos can make or break you at any time
what one can control is be one true self under all circumstance
One can be our true paranoid weird self that and do thing that make one happy,do thing that one want's to do without regard for past of future.Since past has already occurred and there is never a point living in the past and due to inherently chaotic order of universe one can never control the future.
For if ever there was a right way i truly believe that this is it.accept the chaos and randomness of the universe and do the the best thing the only thing I can do and will do is to be me ,weird paranoid me........
26 Years
my friend always used to tell birthdays are not occasion to celebrate we should be in fact be dark and gloomy as they bring us one year closer to our death. One more year has gone by .... One more year of failure one more year of lost promises last year i had promised that next 25 year would count for something ,bit here i and again as a failed and miserable soul i has always take time in the past to enjoy this one day to feel free without looking at my moral code One more year has gone by .... i punished my self today,i tried not to enjoy today but still the day seemed special it's what one feels,sad most of their lives and only takes time to be happy or pretend to be happy on certain days or occasion in our lives and I think I am turning into something ordinary it's like i have realized i am suddenly falling from the sky and that i do not know to fly fate is inevitable .no matter what path you choose i have tried many things in the past to change the path of my life try to achieve the good things in life to improve the quality of my life,to do the right thing i have failed at everything i have tried, not lived up to the standard i had set for myself i do not know where i go from here if i will be here next year to continue the story still running a lost race or completely surrendered to fate i will remember today,because where I go from here to heaven or hell gets decided from this point on ...... i will have a resolve made of stone .......
Failed again
I had failed yesterday may entire life was judged in 10 min today i tried ...well maybe not the best i have failed again . i will neither by happy not successful i will suffer from now until the dawn.i will never be happy ....ever there will never be any redemption,and i ain't asking for none
Failed
I have failed.
I have realized that i would never succeed in my current position
I have let gone one of my dreams.
Dream of immortality has faded possibly lost.
I will take a break,a break from all that i am
a stupid,disillusioned hypocrite.
I will improve,i will come back.
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