stranger

I was going through some blogs. when a random post caught my eye
I started to read th blog.there were may thing i could relate to in the post.
i was happy that someone out there think the way i do.

so i started reading all the all the blogs that were posted.
as i went through them i realized that we share a very similar thinking.
these blogs were witten about some 2 years ago .it told about the discussion the persond had with firendshis own thinksing ,ideas ,fears.the blogs were on all topics like life,death,music,dreams,reality,god,delivi all the topics under the sun
after reading through some of these blogs i really freaked out.

the blogs about life,our purpose in life,how we have change,lost the light in our eyes etc really freaked me out because these we the discussion what i and my closest friends were having for the last 2 months or so.

i spent sleepless nights thinkinking about my life,my dreams aspirations,
how i have failed to pursue my passions.why am i scared to chase my dreams etc.
these were the my innermost thoughts and ideas which i did not entirely share with my firends also.these were the friends with whome i have cried laughed enjoyed and live my life.and still they did not fully know who i am

i was afraid perhaps to share all my thoughts with them,
because only fear a person has while sharing his ideas is
that the idea will never be judged but the person definately will
though we were friends who stood by each other through thick and thin,
never questioned each others actions,never judged each other
i still had a small felling of insecrity that they will not relatre to me and judge me.

we never portray our true self in society.
it a heavy outer shell which we project over our real image.
the outer shell is always projected as how you would like to be.
you project a false image of all your dreams and desires in this outer shell
it conditions itself and modifies itself from time to time to fullfil your needs,desires and surroundingvery less of wht is really true seeps though this outer shell and can be seen.

you let only your closet friend see the real you.
most of the time we deceive even ourselve so that we cannot see who we really are and what we have become

we live in ignorance from the fears of facing reality
we all have our own set of fears,insecurities and thing we hide from everyone else.

and we live under the false pretance that these fears have dissapered
these are the thing we do not want other people to know even our closet friends.
if some one knows you completely,understands all you thoughts felling,you weakness,your insecurities
your despair ,agony your cowardliness to face up to life.you can never look that person in the eye talk again.

because you know that you are ashamd of there weaknesses nad would never find the courage to see youself in the mirror eye to eye thinking about all these insecuraties,

And here i find a stranger who has put down excatly all my thoughts,feeling,fears,nightmares,beliefs etc
all deppest fears,insecrities,and agony my live is known to a complete strange.
the blogs said about thing i was always afraid to tell my self.
i am really freaked out that someone out there knows the real me.though a complete strange.who probaly i will never even seee.but just the thought that someone can see beneath the inner shell into all your weaknesses scares me.
but i am also happy that there is someone out there like me.
this situation reminds me of line from one of pink flyods greatest songs

ECHOES
"strangers passing in the street,
by chance two seperate two glances meet
i see you ,and what i see is me "