Do i really want to live

All the events going on in the world seem like random act's.

Instinctive reactions to some invisible stimulus .

A voice shouting in our head "Do we really want to live ?"

We are not sure and in our indecision we have succumbed to voices in our head accepted the futility of asking such a question .

We begin to talk to ourself .We tell ousrself Not searching for the answer to the questions in our head surely takes a toll on us ...Makes us a little crazy

But then again the answer is equally like to shatter us ,again wrapped in indesicion we are faced with choices which will leads to the

same place no matter what we choose,We realize that

if all the paths lead to the same place then choice is just a matter of illusion ,

If we are all destined to die,what difference does it make how we lead our lives ,if final destination is the same

Then life and our act of living this live is just a pretence .There is no purpose to life at all.

Sure if heaven existed ,god would have sent us to heaven considering all the good deeds we have done during our life time

But we know that heaven and hell do not exist and neither does God.We wish that god existed everything would be so simple.

Future would be so clear.But he does not .

So then again to fill in the void call life we need to create a illusion for ourself and everyone around us.

So we create a abstraction to justify our existence . And We call this abstraction "Purpose of life "

We never Define it,we never quantify it,we never establish it,we only whisper it deepest silent hall of our minds

We do not let anyone hear it not ever ourself .

And the Nature of the abstraction is irrelevant at this point and is saved for future discussion.

We all live with this pretence ,But we are never to speak of it.

As it always existed,there lies an abstration majority of people choose to adopt.

And if you find yourself in the majority ,You will begin to see the world a little bit differently ,

And you will hate and despise all the people who have choosen other abstrations and vice versa .

Because of differences in these people they are capable of seeing the other people truly are

an with this knowledge we begin to see what we truly are also.

Most of the human race realises this so we never try to recognize anybody who is different .

They only way to know that two people are different is for them to have seperate identities .,for them to have

distinct individual traits.

Hence to shield our selves from knowing the truth all we have to do is never possess any individuality ,

It's really simple,

All we have to do is always agree with what other people

And only share a opinion which eveyone will agree .Never possess a opinion different from others.

Possess and learn the same ideas,Like the same songs,read the same book

Follow and adopt each others abstrations ,Life will turn into a wondeful journey

a false journey but nontheless a wonderful journey

We will all be the same

We will all be different

It really does not matter

We all have to live

We are all doomed to die ..........

I have still not answered the question in my head

Do we really want to live ?

May be i will save it for another day .....